My confidence is in God alone and His promises.
Facing some health concerns, including hypertension, which to me is life threatening, I feel increasingly insecure. But it has not yet (and I hope it won’t) reached a point of despair or depression. And a little worried I may be, but scared I am not (yet).
Instead I just use every moment I have to hear more from God, what He would like me to do, etc. Perhaps I need a lifestyle change, like have more exercise and watch my diet, and have enough rest instead of working for extended hours.
Or maybe He’s teaching me about putting my trust in Him and stop relying on my own resources (though they were given by Him in the first place).
And indeed He has spoken along that line. This morning while on nebulizer to treat my acute bronchitis and allergic rhinitis, I opened my Daily Bread app and found that today’s devotion was about confidence. “Think about some of the things that bring you security. How would you cope if they were stripped away from you?”, asked the devotional (which I highly recommend to iPad users).
The biblical text was Psalm 52, and since I was offline I used my old Bible instead to read the chapter. And guess what, I opened the Book exactly to Psalm 52! (fastest search I’ve made, even beating Google!) My old Bible, which I have not used for ages and has been collecting dusts in my bookshelf, has not lost its power, bringing me a message that both instructs and inspires.
People who trust in their wealth and destroy others will be put to shame. God will “bring them down to everlasting ruin” (Psalm 52:5). This is both a warning and an assurance for me. I should stop trusting my own resources, and I should stop worrying about big, powerful people and governments who bully the weak, because their arrogance will end in their own destruction, and humiliation.
Indeed the verses are reassuring in the light of my health concerns and, add to that, someone stealing my laptop and wallet, a loss that translates to P25,000-30,000. That could have paid for the medicines I am now taking! But I have stopped (or avoided) fretting because what’s important now is that the incident has taught me to trust more in God. He will supply all my needs, and do whatever He thinks is appropriate to teach the thief his own lesson.